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I hope it's fine that I'm venting on here. I can't hide my thoughts anymore, and I need a place to vent this off.
I have been experiencing some weird symptoms that I'm not fully familiar with. I am having mood swings that are out of control. I get mad, annoyed, and upset to the point of tears super quick. Like a bunch switches being flickered at random. I get extremely mad when things don't go my way. For instance, the house is a huge mess. I always pick up after everyone, and I can't stand it. Or I'll start crying when I feel ignore, or when something just slightly sad appears. I get annoyed with the amount of coughing or breathing weird. I hate hearing my family's voices at times.
I'm heavily bloated. More than normal. I already had my cycle (or what I thought was my cycle?), and I'm still heavily bloated. I had my cycle(?) really early. Only a few days after I had done it with this guy I really, really like. It didn't flow right at all. I blame it on stress.
But the bloating always goes away after I have my cycle. This time no. I'm heavy on the belly. I'm hungry all the time. I crave food every hour of the day. It's been two weeks of this. For the past couple days, I have been getting nauseous. When I drink sprite or Gatorade, I nearly hurl. I get sick the most at night. My stomach will turn for no reason. Some smells have been bothering me today. It's annoying. I'm having some tendering in my breast area, sometimes it hurts like hell. I'm also super tired all the time. I can nap up to three times a day. I have never been that tired since I was a teen when i had extremely bad insomnia. I'm also getting cramps like I would on my cycle, but they aren't painful. Unlike my actual period cramps where I would have to put myself in a ball just to ease the pain. I'm so tired of this s**t.
I don't see a doctor until Thursday. So, I won't have answers for this could be just yet. I don't have an idea of what the hell is wrong with me. I have two theories: I have diabetes, or I am pregnant. I don't know which it could be...
I know this will sound strange, but if I had to choose which one, I choose pregnancy. Stupid I know.
I hope it's not either one. Hell, I live with my Fing parents still. I don't want them to have to deal with me for either. I wish I could move out already. I'm almost done paying off my debt, and I'm one issue away from getting out of here. My checkup is gonna be a b to pay off, but I'll be able to do it.
I have good faith that my life is leading to the right direction. I just fear of what I will have to sacrifice. The biggest thing I would have to sacrifice is caring for my mom. I take care of my mom all the time due to her health. I don't mind doing it. If I have Diabetes, I'll be able to care for her still, but if I'm pregnant, once the baby arrives, I need to focus more on it and taking care of myself at the same time. I don't think I can do both. Maybe I can. Who knows.
I'm just scared
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Apr 20, 2026 01:51 Honestly sounds like pregnancy. Why not go to a drug store and pick up a test? |
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Apr 20, 2026 07:58
Is this another money scam? |
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Apr 20, 2026 16:12 Anytime you need to vent, we are here. Not sure how to help you but I'm sending positive vibes and vitual hugs. |
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Apr 20, 2026 19:15 Yeah you sounds like your pregnant, is your smell heightened? |
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Apr 20, 2026 19:23 One time my smell was heightened but i showered and then it was fine |
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Apr 20, 2026 23:28 idk, smoke rock or something for the bloating |
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Apr 21, 2026 08:05 Sounds like pregnancy to me, you might want to get that checked out |
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Apr 21, 2026 20:01 How would an unfückable oaf like you know about anything remotely related to pregnancy or procreation without having first checked with ChatGPT, Vamp? |
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Apr 21, 2026 22:36 hey hey don't make fun of him, he obviously never seen a vagina in his life |
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Apr 21, 2026 23:27 I almost feel bad for vamp now. Almost. |
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Apr 22, 2026 11:17
Why do you guys ganging up on Vamp? Is it his political views or you not into goths? Hate is strong and yeah I don't really care but don't bully a fellow misfit. |
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Apr 22, 2026 12:05 vamp is just retarded, its not anything about subculture just a tard with retarded thoughts |
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Apr 22, 2026 13:49 love him or hate him vamp is a beacon of this community |
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Apr 22, 2026 16:01 Bullying Vamp is always morally correct. |
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Apr 22, 2026 19:08 Vamp is a cry-wänking jackass who dishes out plenty of shǐt and then bitches about it when anyone gives it back. |
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Apr 22, 2026 19:33 Ditty spaceman is that you? It might be him hah. The mysteries of the www. |
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Apr 22, 2026 22:22 I dont ever chime in but damn im grabing my popcorn. |
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Apr 23, 2026 05:00 I only read about 1 paragraph of the thread body so far, but yes, the pregnancy thing sound on point but to deal with the emotions you might want to think about dbt, it's really helpful for that type of thing. |
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Apr 23, 2026 05:02 My ex had two very similar "periods" after she got pregnant. Both times it happened. And both times I knew she was preggers before she did, not even from the periods either, I just knew. |
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Apr 23, 2026 07:41 Actually I'm smarter than you retards think I am, you just don't know it yet |
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Apr 23, 2026 07:44 Over 30 years of me playing video games really has helped stimulate brain growth and eye hand coordination. Ever thought about that? |
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Apr 23, 2026 08:01 Eye hand coordination that would not translate to any useful human movements... period. If you got in a fight I don't think the A-B-B-A combo is gonna work. |
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Apr 23, 2026 10:41 hand eye coordination helps with certain skills, none of which you have 🤭 |
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Apr 23, 2026 11:47
Eye hand coordination, spat my coffee out at that. There are videos to prove your hand coordination. |
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Apr 23, 2026 13:18 Vamp is smart because he plays showering with hitler on steam |
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Apr 23, 2026 16:17 How smart is his mamma? |
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Apr 23, 2026 18:49 He's smart enough to know his mere presence is like the turn of a key in a music box. |
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Apr 23, 2026 19:17
yeah, if it is pregnancy there is not much you can do about it now. |
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Apr 23, 2026 19:22
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Apr 23, 2026 23:14 Brap brap, pew pew! |
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Apr 23, 2026 23:18 Sus who is Max and why you doubt our intelligence? Mine and the kingdom of mine? You on the tour and got stuck with your Danish between your cheeks? |
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Apr 23, 2026 23:19 Go to bed. |
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Apr 23, 2026 23:30
Why? Im watching vids. Is the new kill Tony aired yet? |
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Apr 23, 2026 23:37 The new KT this week was on Netflix and it's totally stupid, imo. They tried to do a crossbreed concept with one of Tony's other favorite things in life, wrestling. It's one of the worst episodes I've seen in a while and I'm starting to see that the arena shows aren't great. |
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Apr 24, 2026 01:09 We gang up on Vamp because he's aggressive and hostile to anyone he doesn't agree with politically. If he wasn't so aggro people wouldn't be dogging him so much |
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Apr 24, 2026 11:40 Maybe because I hate people who don't know s**t |
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Apr 24, 2026 11:43 I hate hive minders who can't even think for themselves, they think everyone and everything is offensive to them |
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Apr 24, 2026 11:51
Its so sad to hear you hate yourself Vamp |
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Apr 24, 2026 14:06 Hates “hive minders,” yet parrots everything Trump and his lackeys say like a good, indoctrinated cult member. Incoherence personified. If you really wanted to convince people you’re such a free thinker, you should occasionally find something to disagree with Trump on. It’s not like he’s a model of ideological consistency. He has said and done innumerable things over the past 10 years that contradict what he said or did earlier, which, in theory, should provide plenty of opportunity to find daylight between what you believe and care about and what he believes and cares about. |
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Apr 24, 2026 14:54
Popculture is smiling from behind the curtains. |
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Apr 24, 2026 16:30 So deep. |
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Apr 24, 2026 16:34
Yeah I was playing with Barbie dolls. They whisper the funniest things hah |
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Apr 24, 2026 16:53 I think Vamp is pregnant |
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Apr 24, 2026 17:47
hates people who don't know s**t but his only skill is hand eye coordination |
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Apr 24, 2026 17:52
Lol, that is brilliant. |
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Apr 24, 2026 22:31 Tbf, there have been studies that claim gaming can improve sensory motor functions, hand eye coordination, and reaction times, however... f**king muscle memory also plays a huge part. Just because some f**k head sits in a bean bag chair all day hitting buttons, doesn't mean he's throwing the game winning hail Mary in the super bowl, or taking down Tyson McGregor in the octagon. They've actually gotta have some experience doing the thing. |
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Apr 24, 2026 23:41
Gaaaaames give you hand eye coordination and spatial intelligence together with |
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Apr 24, 2026 23:47 Oddly enough, I'd think that the one thing games would help with is warfare combat. |
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Apr 24, 2026 23:55
It also helps with love making. |
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Apr 25, 2026 01:52 you know what also gives good hand eye coordination? welding with a fixed hood but that requires actual skill to do 🤭 |
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Apr 25, 2026 02:37 I don't think they make a welding game though... so, tough titties on that one I guess? Gonna have to learn that the ol' fashioned way. |
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Apr 25, 2026 05:42 harbor freight has decent stick welders and hoods. perfect for a hobby and some ironwork |
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Apr 25, 2026 07:29 You guys are the cult members |
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Apr 25, 2026 07:29 The whole Orange Man Bad cult |
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Apr 25, 2026 07:55
More like "hello my name is... and Im happy to be here where all what I done is justified by my want" |
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Apr 25, 2026 11:50 That comparison to Cyrax was filthy Sloth lmaoooooo! |
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Apr 25, 2026 11:52 I need to get a phone with a dictionary or glasses hah 🤭😅 |
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Apr 25, 2026 12:19 Me when i'm in a cult: "You guys are the cult members" |
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Apr 25, 2026 12:29 Sorry but to touch on "gaming has helped brain stimulation and hand eye coordination" why not do a martial art or something you know kinda cool dude, I play games too but jeez it's not that great of a help |
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Apr 25, 2026 12:41 He's a Real Gamer™ |
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Apr 25, 2026 13:05 why not skating? full body coordination plus be really good at balancing. that might be hard though since you have to go outside |
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Apr 25, 2026 15:51
Are we looking for a new hobby for Vamp? |
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Apr 25, 2026 20:19 Skating is the best. It's also got a little bit of a discipline/zen aspect to it. |
