Im Anthony
I was born in Munich Germany
I play music
I am shy but outgoing
Im a clutz
Im not normal. Which is cool
Im bipolar/manic depressive
Im a cutter (Idc if you dont like it)
So you want to get to know me huh? Well, Be prepared. When I was born in Munich Germany, Life was good. I had a great family, We had more money then I could ever imagine. I had great friends and relatives. Up until I was 10. We moved to the United States and everything began to go downhill. My mother had many issues in her life, Including alcohol and some drugs (all I am not just figuring out more of) She also was diagnosed with cancer when I was age 6. My mother and father began constantly fighting, and it always got worse and worse. They divorced (idk what year) and I began living with my mom. It sucked going in between parents. The drugs began overtaking my mother and I ended up doing things she made me do that ruined alot for me. (Not ready to open up about this unless I know you more). My mom commited suicide on January 10th 2003. Three days after her birthday. I didn't find out until the 23rd. I dont really remember anything about being with her anymore, And its upsetting. The last trip I remember going on with her (which i'll never obviously forget) was New York city on septemeber 11th 2001. Yes I was there, We were close to the towers during the attacks. No I don't want to talk about it. The year following my mothers death, I tried everything I could to get answers. But never did. It took me two years before I started taking it out on myself blaming myself for it. I began to make suicide attempts of my own. Anything out there i've tried. I've hung myself, Cutt myself, Swollowed pills. Yeah, Im f**ked up in your head but in mine thats the life I was given. Now, I live with my father who has been the greatest dad anyone could ask for. He has bad heart problems tho and I constantly have to worry about him. I don't want to lose him, But i know someday I will
It will just add to everything i've dealt with. I was bullied throughout my middle school and high school years. Constantly. Always the "f**k up" Always the "Loser". I also was called fat and gross because I was back then and idc. Yeah, It fueled my fire to ending it all. I still wish it would have. I've never been good enough for anyone.If your at this point, You must really be bored, or somewhat interested. Sorry im not perfect tho, I know im worthless. Don't need to remind me. There is alot more about what i've been through that im not gonna openly type out at this moment. If you want to know you can message me, but you gotta be willing to talk about yourself aswell. I don't wanna talk too someone who doesn't understand.
