ftm transgender. gay is okay

I want to be a guy more than anything in the world. This has gotten to the point where it’s affecting everything about me. I get bullied, picked on and questioned all the time about my gender. It sucks. Being a guy in a girls body makes me want to tear my skin off and hopefully there’s actually a guy underneath. Do you know how it feels to almost getting a referral for entering the girl’s locker room? I’m not that kid who checks out every girl in the locker room either. But apparently that’s what everybody else thinks I do. But I don’t. I’m a nice guy.. Hi, My name’s Jayy, and I hate who I am.