About me, well, my life is a lot like a 2-headed coin. A regular coin with two different sides represents the good and the bad things that happen in a person’s life. My coin has two heads, and each flips represents something bad that happens in my life. Needless to say, it hasn’t turned out the way I would like, nor has it turned out to be something even salvageable. It feels like it’s hanging by a thread, and each flip of my coin adds strain to the thread that will one day break.
Although there are achievements in my life that one would see as a positive, to me, that don’t mean a great deal. I do have a driver’s license. I completed high school. I’ve completed two university degrees. One in Commerce and the other in Creative Arts. I finished high school, my commerce degree and got my license all on the 12th November. I guess in a way, that is my lucky day. But it doesn’t feel any different to any other day of the week.
Speaking of days of the week, I have never celebrated the New Year. I actually have a bad memory of this day because of a girl. I also hate my birthday. I hate it because of that same girl. When I was working, a public holiday just meant I got to sleep in like it was a one-off additional day of the weekend. I currently do not work, so public holidays and weekdays are meaningless. Some days I wake up and have no clue what day it actually is.
Currently I sleep on a couch in my room. That’s not to say that I don’t have a bed. I actually do, but my bed is a double and being a double bed, it is a constant reminder that I have no one to snuggle with. Sleeping in a half empty bed leaves me feeling lonely and awake all night. The couch gives me some relief as it one has room for me. However, the couch is about 5 cm too short, which can leave my feet uncomfortable and sore the next morning.
At the moment, I’m currently single. More accurately, I shouldn’t use the words “At the moment”, only because I’ve never had a girlfriend before. I’ve known girls who were at one point in time, friends to a degree. But I wanted more, yet they would always find some reason to prefer not to be with me in the same way I wanted to be with them. The fact that they knew I liked them gave them the power to take advantage of me to get want they want, and as a result, I’m no longer friends them. And I’m not exactly taking about one or two girls. I actually need two hands count the number of girls who have mistreated me. And no matter how hard I try, I am constantly haunted by these girls simply because I have no one good in my life to replace them.
I guess what I need in my life right now is for someone to take my 2-headed and flip it, and with each flip, she would flip tails, and change my life.
