I'll just put down describing words it might be more efficient. At the risk of scaring people off by being honest I won't leave out the negative ones cause I'm not into pretending to be anyone but myself in return for anything, especially not love. I'll give you the good news first. Results will be conflicting because I'm not the same person all the time. Sometimes I'm happy sometimes I'm not. Some things might sound conceded, self loathing, generic. You're not going to get to know me by reading this. I'd go to firetwirling event or a bush doof to meet people but I don't feel like socialising too much rn.
Loving. Kind. Non judgemental. Empathetic. Relateable. Creative. Innovative. Autistic. Experienced. Dark humor. Resilient. Determined. *****. Open minded. Supportive. Independent. Confident. Adventurous. Courageous. Narcissist slayer. Survivor. Self loving.
Anxious. Depressed. Self loathing.Confused. Scared. A.D.H.D squirrel.
Hmm I didn't realise this window was so big! Ok well it's been big weekend so maybe I'll come back to this.
But yeah I love working on my car and fixing things myself. I'm very handy and I've run businesses and I was mental health worker and....
I like adrenaline and nature and psychology and electronics and hunting for firewood and 4wdriving and quad biking.
I live off grid in a 40 foot coach the I bought as a passenger bus and converted myself into a fully functional and livable off grid tiny home in the bush. (Ballarat). I'm looking for a friend who is a girl... who is highly intelligent, kind. *long pause* . I know I have found what I am looking for because I'll get a feeling. I don't how else to describe it I know that sounds illogical and maybe it is dumb to be emotionally driven and not logically driven but perhaps emotions are driven by the sub conscious and perhaps the subconscious is even more logical than the latter. I dunno! I hope I find someone nice, don't we all. Thanks for reading. Message me if you want but here's some unsolicited advice. I'm pretty obsessed with human behaviour not only is it interesting but knowing about it helps me and I like to help others navigate what can sometimes be this f**ked up nightmare we call life with brief commercial like breaks that can be described as happiness. (You may say I have a negative outlook, I say I'm a realist. I'll flip the devil off and be ok with losing my keys (I have no idea where they are they've been missing for days now). It means I don't have to go down the street which is f**king awesome I have an excuse to stay home for a bit! haha...I need to find them at some point. Anyhow - where were we. Oh yeah - Oh did I mention that I'm a.d.d? I forgot what we were talking about. Also like I said, big weekend. What can I say I like to party.
I'm also health conscious though and I look after my body and my mind. (most of the time). Oh that's right - I remember now. Ok so people tend to not even interact with other people not only because they're rejection sensitive due to attachment issues and self esteem issues and other stuff like autism but it's also because....they personalise that rejection. I might message someone on here that looks interesting and they'll not even respond because 1. They might be a nice person and afraid that I might feel rejected. 2. They don't know that I've done alot of thinking about stuff and I don't care if someone doesn't like or want me. Someone else will, I know that from experience. I'm not going to be everyone's cup of tea, and neither are you. Someone saying that they're not attracted to you - has less to do with you, and everything to do with them and their tastes. Not everyone's going to like you, why do you need them to? You don't...Be good, do good and love yourself and find someone you like and with a bit of luck - they'll like you too! At the end of the day though., nobody is going to save you so you'd better make friends with yours truly hey. I'm not going to tell someone I'm not attracted to them though because I don't think most people have thought about this and it will just hurt their feelings. I will have to tell some white lie and sugar coat it and that feels gross but I've yet to come up with another way. Can you suggest anything? If you have an idea that you think might help me and others - I would love to hear from you. =)