im back during the valentines possibly a date maybe im not too sure. I know im not interested in any hookups."just a few drinks, possibly a dinner date" that's casual im not making any promises that I can't keep. on long term goals.
im not completely healed from a connection before.
but I'm valuing the theres is still chance in the right people, at the right time.
but im asking now, please keep this friendly, im not ai. artificial. i have multiple anxieties right now, about being rushed and pushed around by people. "who have lived difference lives to mine."
We all have baggage, and lived lives differently.
i've lived with the shadow of obedience and control and with possessive ex partners.
I don't want to battle all my life in relationships anymore.
So having wishful thinking is an escape from my responsibilities. is just an escape from a controlling individuals, that I cant just escape from.
its the truth my only escape is finding my own garden and my own independence not whats given to me, or another relationship.
I'm trying to make best choices now, where I'm living in my own light and not beat around by masculine energies all my life.
Why I still occasionally choose to pop up here, time to time.
I have no expectations but hanging out, and going places where I'm separate from the reality that i live in now.
