Hello
I'm back to chat with friendly, positive, acquaintances. The key word was acquaintances.🙂 I'm in a relationship, almost going on 3yrs
Are you ready for some word salad.
Tbh, probably won't be here to chat too much. Not consistently anyways. Im pretty busy. Best to expect minimal, & random chats with me. Nothing personal.
Personally, I'm not a hyper person, or impulsive. I don't get bored, I'm very independent & self reliant. I tend to like people who are similar.
I think music was better when ugly people were allowed to make it.
I work full-time, the gym, gigs & concerts, lots of learning, podcasts, YouTube, reading. Recently diagnosed with 2 genetic autoimmune disease, fricken tired most of the time, & fight being cranky. My grandmother suffered from lupus, so these diagnoses make sense. Whatcha do? Just keep living, right!! & hopefully not deal with, others unessessary, no excuse, bulls**t.
Memento mori
I still love travelling when I can. 😊 & I'll continue to do so, till they say we won't allow you on a plane anymore.
Possible stupid story about me.
When I stopped off in Hawaii. I bought this guy a burger, who I thought was homeless, my boyfriend laughed, & said he thinks the guy was just blind drunk, or wasted. Maybe he was both wasted & homeless. 🤷🏻♀️
I think a lot about life, growth & identity, & nothing is fixed, & is forever changing, that said I've always been a somewhat complex & straight forward person. Lol meaning the fundamentals remain, but intricate details, or approach can shift. I like remaining open, & willing to listen to others, so long as it doesn't come with arrogance, anger, or scolding. I may still consider what youve said, but it will probably end any kind of bond.
Im here to ask the deep questions, like has anyone got there nose chain piercings caught on anything interesting yet? 🤪
I can be a traditionalist in some respects & progressive in other ways.
Interesting thing is ive met a lot of people on here, that say people, & humans are s**t. Yet they "claim" they want to meet the "1percent of so called good people. " like so called life, & bad just happens to "them". But if we all thought like that, wouldn't you think, our attitude or perspective would stink, & we would end up projecting & being apart of that majority of arsehole we despise, ourselves. How about you take personal responsibility, & be & act the way you want others to behave towards you, you might be surprised what effect that has around you, & others around you. I think attitude & perspective account for a lot, even when things get tough. No one's perfect, try some compassion, try some positivity, try giving people benefit of the doubt, but dont be a push over, put balance out into the world/ cosmos. Yes, some people will still act s**t, with you're good attitude, but dont let that get to you. If they want to sell out to constant s**t words, & behaviour with no accountability, thats on them. Let them go on there miserable way. I don't know just some thoughts, from my head, that never shuts up. Lol
Not interested chatting with people, too attached to there own, & group/peer opinions, It usually comes with obnoxious behaviour.
I'm fine to chat with maybe 2 people that were casually on the forum, they were pretty chill & wise. The others, sorry but most of you are, or have insecurities that clash with mine. Especially online. In fact I think most of you have similar insecurities as each other, but thats your business to sort out. Leave me with mine.
Tbh i use to, or occasionally find melancholy moods somewhat comforting, but i tend to heavily retreat into myself when im in that state, but I dont stay there, to be blunt im getting pretty sick of that in myself, & in others, socially. Whinning, complaining, negative nancys, dont bring that to me. I dont want it. Lifes hard enough sometimes.
Also, not interested in your bored, bitchy, whingey, ranting personal messages, droning on about how defective you think I am. Or anyone that doesn't kiss your arse. If you're that way inclined. It's just your negative perspective. You need to keep your narcissistic thoughts to yourself, or get help pls.
Sometimes
I feel like I want to live
Far from the metropolis
Just walk through that door
Sometimes
I feel like I want to fly
Reach out to the painted sky
A prisoner to the wind
A bird on the wing
Sometimes
I feel the ocean in my blood
See rain from the sky above
Her salt brined tears
And now
Those tears leave taste on my tongue
Like the warm rush you get from
Black opium
Black opium
Sometimes
I feel like I want to leave
Behind all these memories
And walk through that door
Outside
The black night calls my name
But all roads look the same
They lead nowhere
They lead nowhere
Opium
Dead can dance
