June 16,2025
It’s 2:57 am for me and i was just laying in bed crying . I been through so much lately I lashed out , I pushed people that cared away , mentally I’m f**ked … I tried to get help but it backfired and I know my mental health is bad and it made me do things I never have done and is anyone on here sees that I hurt them I apologize I f**ked up im admitting it I f**ked everything up and I’m not saying cause my mental state is bad gives me the right to do what I did .. but I did and I can’t change it . I don’t expect anyone to forgive me I’m not asking for that … I just wanna come clean and admit my mistakes and apologize. Since I can’t get the help professionally I’m trying to heal on my own and it’s damn hard.
Im still ina dark place mentally and emotionally and im not ready for a relationship. How can I love someone when I don’t even love myself or know who I am anymore. I join this not expecting anything just to write about my pain and trying to heal and if anyone wants to talk just send a message cause I’ll also be on tumbler to is anyone would like to read from there as well . Having someone to talk to at night would be nice . I appreciate everyone that took the time to read this and hope you have a good day / night
