I'm just a guy, who has dealt with alot of depression in my life. I have learned to deal with it but "each day feels more and more like the last day" its all the same. I don't do drugs,drink, or smoke because I feel that in order to accept life you have to accept its pain and if you cant live life for its beautiful torment of us all than where is the fun if you have to be as high as a kite just to tolerate it?