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ANTHON

47 - Straight

West Midlands, United Kingdom

Dec 28, 2023 16:16

I am a painter and a business man

This means that I am usually very busy


But beneath this, a loneliness, a longing, a reaching toward the dreamlike eternity 

Truly, the only place where I feel 

My love was murdered and I search for her constantly, walking in the quiet places of the world 

Sometimes I hear her

She speaks to me 

Through the heavy mists of the morning when the veil is at its thinnest

Through the beauty of the tiny moments of beauty that occur 

Through the imagined scent of her perfumes, the nectar of existence, the craving for her closeness 

Flowers scream her passion to me and the lost hope of embrace 

Birds and small creatures beg the world for our union and our unconceived child presses the boundaries of the real, begging to be born, the flower of flesh and blood and the hope of all things 

Perfect love 

Bourne of salvation and out of darkness 

From the darkest place sprang forth the sweetest flower whose perfume is rare and intoxicating 


Now I seek only to give 

To gift all that I am and all that I ever had the potential to be to the void 

I fling it willingly into the blackness of eternity in hope 

All that I have is poetry and painting and this is what I must use to fight, this is my blessing and my curse 

My arms are open to the cold embrace of a bleakness more terrifying than loneliness and hate

To swallow the greyness and still believe 

Still travel hopefully 

Death has touched me and I care not

Now there is no fear 


Because I have known love 

Found the secret world in beautiful wishes and dared to dive inside 


Now I am eternal 

Sadness has its own beauty 

And while I remain I will glorify she who saved me and walk in the cruelty of corporeality with a beautiful secret inside 


My eyes are bright and my cheek is pale

And the dawn blushes beautifully 

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