Im a 34 year old Army veteran and father of four kids, I live for my kids, I live in the country on two acres and have dogs, cats, and chickens, I'm an aspiring homesteader and trying to learn how to raise animals and garden, I don't use tobacco products of any kind, non smoker, i don't drink alcohol and not interested in alcoholics at all period, drinking on occasion might be acceptable, no drugs, I'm into health and fitness and trying to get back to my Army fitness level but its not easy, I''m into eating healthy but im not perfect, I'm a gamer and me and my son love playing Apex Legends, Minecraft, Fortnite, Titanfalll 2 and COD Modern Warfare, Im a runner but ive been slacking for years and trying to get back to it more, i'm a conspiracy theorist or factualist take your pick and its a big part of who i am so being understanding about that is key, I love my guns, I'm fairly anti social i dont have family to go see and i dont have friends i hang out with, I prefer being at home taking care of my kids or out in nature or outside doing yard work and tending to the animals, I love outdoors adventure and sight seeing but hate crowded places and lots of people so forget that, hate bars and clubs and most restaurants but can do restaurants, hate concerts not my scene, I work out a lot, i struggle with depression because my dad was never there and he was a jerk also i deployed twice to Iraq as an infantryman and saw too much and it has deeply affected my emotional being, when i came home from war my mom and stepfather didnt support me the way i needed them to and that deeply affected me as well adding to my depression further and i lost my sisters and most of my friends and other family members because nobody is understanding and doesnt have the same outlook as me, a lot of falling outs took place unfortunately, my mom divorced my stepdad who was a key figure for me and he went crazy and then disappeared and ive been depressed about that to and now my mom is moving to another state with this guy and im not happy about it plus she hates me so its like someone stabbed me in my heart and i need someone to pull the dagger out, my wife hasnt been happy with my anger and depression and my attitude and moved out so now im as low as you can get however i still have my beautiful children and they keep me going everyday, they are my strength, all i have left but im missing something else crucial to my survival and that is you, whoever you are, my woman, my partner, my best friend, the one who can lift my spirit back up and bring me back from the dead, i need you bad and im very sexual, im passionate and intimacy for me is crucial, love, trust, faith, compassion, understanding
