NOW he understood it and realized that the inward voice had been right,that no teacher could have brought him salvation.That was why he had to go into the world,to lose himself in power,women and money;that was why he had to be a merchant,a dice player,a drinker and a man of property,until priest and Samana in him were dead.That was why he had to undergo those horrible years,suffernausea,learn the lesson of the madness of an empty,futile life till the end,till he reached bitter despair,so that Siddartha the plasure-monger and Siddartha the man of property could die.He had died and a new Siddartha had awakened from his sleep.He also would grow old and die.Siddartha was transitory,all forms were transitory,but tuday he was young,he was a child-the new Sddartha-and he was very happy