Hey, I am just a smallish town kid in a world I do not belong. I am 19 and have only ever had a couple people I could have considered friends and now there gone. I have big dreams and aspirations for me and different people and wish nothing less to achieve them! I don't know who the f**k I am, im just a disgusting male longing to be a girl. It eats away at me every day and I try to fight it, the urge to end it all. I just want someone there to help..me.