Status: Singing, Screaming, Raping to Dangerkids
1:00 AM, Friday May 15th
In my 30 years of life I've learned one hard truth, no matter how much you may want to be loved, sometimes you will never be loved by anyone from the day you're born till the day you die; and that no one will notice or care if you disappear randomly one day. That you just have to learn to be strong and have the will to keep going even though you're all alone and you'll always be alone, you just have to keep going, because that's what life is all about. For many of us there is never a rainbow after the rain, it's just rain; but that can't make you give up. You just have to keep going even though you know there is no happy ending.
"Those who would give up essential Liberty, to purchase a little temporary Safety, deserve neither Liberty nor Safety."
- Benjamin Franklin
“Whether you think you can, or you think you can't, you're right.”
- Henry Ford.
Living in harmony with nature and why I look so young:
Humans are Frugivores like apes, not omnivores or carnivores. Please stop eating animals ;~; they have just as much of a right to live as we do and we're not meant to eat cooked food or animals anyway. We're meant to be raw vegans, so try to start eating raw (just means you dont heat anything above 118 degrees, the temperature at which enyzmes start to be destroyed, which are the essential cells needed to sustain life and biological processes in all life forms; And that you dont consume anything animal as its acidic and acidity manifests disease in the human body; as the body is slightly alkaline at 7.2). You must eat alkaline to stay illness and disease free. Eating cooked food and animals also causes accelerated aging, you literally age at twice the rate at which you would if you were to eat raw. Its why i look like im like 14-19 when im 30. Lou Corona is also another perfect example that this isn't just a theory. He's been a raw vegan for 40+ years since he was 30 and he has barely aged at all. Look him up, he's usually 65-75 in his YouTube videos and he looks 30 maybe 35 at most. He has dark black hair, no wrinkles and is really strong for his age. Other people his age are winding down and aren't able to things they used to and Lou's life is just starting. He is living proof that this isn't just make believe and that mankind has been eating wrong all this time.
Before you read anymore to learn about me, I do not want children. I can't stand them. So if children is something you want you should look else where :3 Though if you would just like to chat and dont want a relationship then that's perfectly fine ^-^ I love to just talk hehe.
Hello there, my name is Ben, I'm a sensitive and romantic guy, looking for a sensitive and romantic girl who I can cuddle and kiss softly with. Hold hands and have that fairy tale romance that we're told doesn't exist. I'm a very passionate and affectionate guy trying to find the other half of my heart. Romance is extremely important to me. If a girl can't romance me, look deeply into my eyes, put her arms around my neck and kiss me softly on the lips I won't even consider her. Romance is everything to me and not something i will live without if I'm with someone. Is it too much to ask to just find someone romantic and attractive to spend the rest of my life with; whom i can be loyal and faithful to and look into their eyes every morning and tell them i love them? All i want is to have that sappy romance you see in the movies we're told does not exist. To have a girl romance me as i romance her and make my heart melt as we lock lips tenderly and embrace each other in each others arms. To look deeply into each others arms and know our hearts beat for one another and that the thought of being without them makes life unbearable and not worth living; for them to be the reason we wake up every day. This is something i want more than anything but its something i doubt ill ever have because i dont find most women attractive and the ones i do find attractive are self absorbed narcissists who treat me like sh!t. So ive been single for almost a decade and i doubt it will ever change. Ive dated here and there for maybe a few weeks to a month, but its always the same. The ones that are the good ones, im not attracted to, and the ones i do find attractive treat me like im nothing and always cheat on me, so I now have bad trust issues. So im used to just being single and living a life without romance. I havent had a kiss or anything physical in almost a decade because im too romantic to be able to do anything promiscuous. I hate lust, if anyone is going to touch me in any way, i need to be romance. I need her to wrap her arms around my neck, look into my eyes, and kiss me softly on the lips and then make love to me. I would never let any girl f'uck me. It will never happen. And i say make love to me, because im very submissive and im very uncomfortable with being in control. I want her to make love to me, not the other way around. Of course we can switch from time to time, it cant only be me being made love to, but most of the time i would like to be on bottom, being made love to. This is the only place where im submissive though. Every other aspect of my life im very headstrong and take charge because i know what i want and will do whatever it takes to achieve my goals. But with affection, im very submissive. Im highly emotional when it comes to affection i become extremely sensitive and just want her to make love to me.
I'm also a musician. Music is my other passion, and what I want to do with my life. Maybe when I become famous women wont pretend I don't exist anymore. I mainly like Post-Hardcore, Alternative Metal, Nu Metal, Post-Grunge and Punk Rock. I want to get signed to a major record label. I sing and scream and used to play guitar but I mainly only played lead guitar for Death Metal because everything else bored me lol. My main influences are Nu Metal with some less prominent genres as a sub-genre, but the main focus of my music is usually Nu Metal. Nu Metal is metal with hip-hop influences. Some of the most well-known Nu Metal bands are Korn, Linkin Park, Thousand Foot Krutch, Skillet, Papa Roach, Ill Niño, Slipknot, and others like this. Its not Rap Metal, but rather regular metal with hip hop riffs and screaming with hip-hop styled singing and screaming with sped up singing and tempos. Majority of people dont understand what Nu Metal actually is and think its rap metal, which its not.
My biggest influences for Nu Metal are:
Linkin Park - "Meteora" album (2003)
Skillet - "Comatose" album (2006) and
Thousand Foot Krutch - "Welcome to the Masquerade" album (2009)
I like the really heavy nu metal bands / Albums, but with high pitched voices. I have never liked a band that has a low pitched singer. I just cant stand people with deep voices. This is why i can't stand Slipknot or Black Veil Brides, their voices are too low for me to stand. This includes women too. I could never listen to, or date a girl that had a really butch voice lol.
I'm also passionate about movies, having seen around 2000 movies, needless to say, I watch a lot of movies. Mostly Comedy, and Romantic Comedies and some action, especially if it's an Action Comedy; though I will watch any genre if it's actually good :3
I also like to read a lot, not fiction though, i mainly read to expand my knowledge about topics. I mostly read about health, nutrition, biochemistry and longevity though. I like to be educated and well informed about things and prefer a girl I'm interested in to be like this too. Many not in the same topics but overall educated and not an idiot like most women in today's age. Nothing is more unattractive than for a woman to be a complete idiot and ignorant lol.
I'm a guy who believes in complete equality. I believe everyone is equal whether they're black, white, Hispanic, Native American, Asian, Arabic, or whatever other race, we're all created equal. This includes gays and transgender and all that stuff as well. If you think any race or type of people are not equal then move along because I won't tolerate that s**t.
Nor will i tolerate any girl who thinks she can tell me what to do or is always right about everything. I wont date a self-absorbed narcissist. I've done it in the past and its not something i will do again. Me and my relationship partner are equals and i wont tolerate any woman who thinks she's a princess and can do and say anything she wants, and treat me however she wants. I demand to be treated with the respect i deserve.
I'm a flat earther and have done thousands of hours of research into this subject and theres too much evidence for me to believe the earth is a ball. I don't like getting messages from people who try to tell me all their so called facts of ball earth so I won't force it on you either, but if you'd like to read a little about it then continue reading, if not skip this entire paragraph below and move on to the next one (:
The earths curvature formula alone does not hold water when you put it to the test in a real life scenario calculation. If you dont believe me, test it out for yourself. Get your starting point distance, your end point distance, and apply the formula of 8 inches per mile squared. And the second object should be x amount of inches below the horizon. And if you can zoom in on the object with a telescope or powerful zoom camera, then the equation is false. It should be impossible to see the object if we live on a ball, your device should not be able to see the second point, because you cant see over a curve. If you can see it, that means you're looking at the object on a level surface. People often scoff at flat earthers for believing the world is flat, but we're the ones who actually do the calculations and dont just believe whatever we're told by the scientific dictators, unlike ball earth believers who have never tried to test anything they say and just believe it just because everyone else does. Thats what you call faith. We dont do faith, we only accept tangible proof. And from what we've collected, the physics for living on a sphere are completely impossible. And if we do live on a ball, why are there no pictures of it. All of NASA and other space agencies pictures are fake Computer Generated Images (CGI). NASA even openly says they're CGI. Theres not one picture of earth that is a real picture. And the size of continents and the color of the earth changes from year to year dramatically in NASA's pictures. How can continents change size so dramatically every year? How do they shrink and expand yearly and yet we dont experience this. If they changed as radically as they would if they were to shrink and expand as NASA shows they do from yearly photos, we would have tidal waves so massive they would be straight out of the movie The Day After Tomorrow. Completely consuming whole cities and making them like Atlantis. (A mythical island said to have been consumed by a great tsunami, written by Plato in the 4th century.) If you think im wrong about any of this, i would love for you to show me evidence that says otherwise. With logic, physics, a real picture that isnt CGI or any other type of tangible evidence to disprove my beliefs.
I'm sorry if i have been too straightforward so far, i'm extremely blunt and honest and lack the ability to lie about anything. I'm transparent. I always say what i think and feel, as i think and feel it. I don't have a filter. I'm autistic, specifically Aspergers Syndrome but am a high functioning autistic since i have an IQ that is rated as genius. Though i dont say this because its irrelevant in a relationship. We're equal anyway. So if you're one that gets easily offended by someone who doesn't tell them what they want to hear 24/7 and arent capable of criticism, we wont get along. Whether you're my family, friend, my lover or just some stranger, i will tell you the truth 100% of the time and say either nice or hurtful things depending on what we're talking about. So im not one to candy-coat things or try to re-word them so they sound nice or lie to not hurt someone’s feelings. If someone asks me anything, im not going to filter one word of it because i lack the ability to distinguish between what someone should say and what someone shouldnt say. I just lack that ability and i see everything as what someone should say. I'm real 100% of the time unlike majority of people who are fake asf.
If you and i share the same morals and you think we'd be a good match or friends or you just want chat, message me (:
Though if you just send me a generic message like "Hi" im not going to respond :3
It tells me you don't care enough to try to get my attention and have an intellectual conversation and actually get to know me and that you didn't even read this lol.