basic stuff i guess. in 6'5" and slim. knock 50 lbs off of me and im back to my glory days weight and look a lot better. im going to ad an actually real current pic of me so you see reality. and im going to add my older pictures because they are my history and because my new pics arent really anything to look at.
i am liberal in a lot of weird ways, i am also conservative in a lot of weird ways. but i dont do well with a lot of child like SJW stuff, i live in reality. im busy working not protesting and bitching. maybe i shouldnt have joined and filled this out on a day im in a mood.
use to love getting made up and going out to the clubs and shows. but im older now, im disappointed with the scenes and the people and honestly the changing times. meaning im not really into the direction of the music and the style, i like punk in the 70s, i like deathrock in the early 80s, i like the new romantic and new wave of 84 and earlier.
i have really become introverted and a bit of a misanthrope. i was always vain in how i looked, but as i said im older now and my exhaustion and disappointment with things win out over the vanity. now i just appear a bland ass normal guy sitting on my fat ass in sweat pants at home dreading work. i am still to vain to be the older guy still hanging out at the goth club trying to pull off some look that is too young for him, i cant live in denial like Robert Smith. basically im here to see if there is anyone else more than half my age on this site that actually lives anywhere near me that has some of the same feelings on it all. the normal middle aged women out there and me just dont click, and not many people around here live through being punk or goth or any other suck s**t for more than a trendy few years in their teens and twenties. cheesy goth and punk weddings turn into normal middle aged married parents and your standard life. i dont have the money and time and resources to live and cool wild strange life, but i also see no point in just being one more link in a chain of endless tradition and reproduction.
of course dont be fooled by the above. im actually a nice laid back guy that is humorous and enjoys one on one heart to heart type conversations even though im not big on public group conversing.
