i work as a computer
tech and a multimedia design editor. I like to watch lots of family
guy and southpark and i like spending time with friends. i have an
apartment with two roommates. i am rather laid back and relaxed. i
hate drama as well.
I have my lip pierced and ears and i have several tattoos. Im very in
touch with the world, nature, and my body.
I really like to grow my hair out and straighten, layer and razorcut it.
I have a thing for scene/emo/punk girls, and i am obsessed with music and good hair!
Stats:
6ft2in
150 lbs
black hair
brown eyes
I don't have much but I make sure that what i do have is well taken care of,
and I may not be the best, however I do try, to at least fall in the shadows of the best,
and I certainly always try my best.
I see the world in many ways :
The Good
I see the good things, like the trees and flowers, the way a dog wags its tail, the way the rain sounds on the roof, the way it feels to drive for no reason - - to just escape and watch the world at work, people going places and doing things. I find it very fascinating.
I love the way my heart feels after I feel really happy, and I love the way back scratch feels, I love the way that it feels to snuggle up next to someone you love to share a nap, or a good nights sleep, I love the way that a sunny day can bring confidence. I love the way music can always seem to explain things. I love that I have the ability to love, and share feelings, and let my heart become one with another.
The Bad
I see the bad things as well, like the car accidents, the drug overdoses, the way that when your down the most - the world can seem eerie and silent.I hate the way that love can fall short on just one end, leaving the other stranded. I hate the feeling of an abandoned heart, the way that friends can fade away. I hate the way that it feels to look into anothers eyes and say goodbye knowing that their life will end.I hate that there is nobody that can ever tell you why, just for the fact that questions about life can only be answered in opinion, the way the single mother struggles, the way that death is always just a phone call away, and that the older you get the more that those who taught you dissapear, I hate the way people talk about fighting, I see the fights, pointless fights, I see that there is hate in the world. I hate the way that an "Innocent" joke from some classmates can make another student end his life. I hate conforming, unless its to rules that benefit everybody. I see that the world is changing, and is headed for its final downfall.
It scares me.
The Others
I don't really have a way to describe things in this category, but they are things that cannot be explained why they are the way that they are, they are things that hurt, things that dig deep, things that last forever, only a very few things will make it to this list, these are things that can only be determined by the person experiencing them. These are things that take parts of a heart away, things that slowly darken a person, and the few that are not darkened by the entity, will remain, always wondering. and always waiting.
These are the things that make you the person that you are.
I used to wish for knowledge, as much as I could get, and I believe that I may know to much about the way the world works, my wish now, is to have the wisdom to understand everything that I have learned.
The world can be a terrible place, a dark place, but it can also be a grand place, a place of celebration, and a place of love, and truth.
