ANGIERAMONE

Hi I am a 2nd gen punk who grew up near Seattle Washinton. I wasin 7th grade when I heard my first Black Flag song on a muxed cassett tape my fri ds big brother had. It was crammedfull ofkuck ass lunk rock from reel to real! BF, X, 999, Damned, Circle Jerks, Germs, Bad Brains, NYDolls. Plasmatics,Mentors, Iggy Pop, Go4, Buzzc**ks, gen X Saints., Ramones DKs etc. I heard that cassette on a s**tty old ghetto box AND LET ME TESTIFY MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS--- I HAD FOUND MY HOME! Punk rock saved my life! My first record was the Ramones _self titled_thenbI got to see them at the Eagles Hippadrome when I wasin 6th grade in 1981.... It was the BEST# I tried. And succeeded to go to every punk show in Seattle, Tacoma, Vancouver Portland ..sometimes even SF or LA ! If I could sneak out of the house, I was as good as there! The surviving Seattle Punks and thenso e continue to be my supporters and muses! I need you guys right now. I HAVE UNKNOWINGLY LET MYSELF BECOME A VICTIM OF FINANCIAL, EMOTIONAL.VERBAL AND PHYSICAL ABUSE. I was getting so used to it that I forgot that it isn't okay. I am called "f**king stupid bitch" dumb ass c**t" -c**t*****bitch plus im told that Im FAT a FAT COW a BEAST that IM OLD UGLY PSYCHOTIC, CRAZY, TOO SENSITIVE, I HAVE ISSUES, I NEED TO SEE A PROFFESSIONAL- and maybe I will get some respect if I start actiü g right. As of today- He tells me that he wont call me names if I dont do anythingupsetting to him to warrant it. He says he doesnt abuse me for nothing,. but to teach me a lesson and to really let me know that I am out of line and my behavior is unacceptable to him. However being a liberated and enlightened punk rock FREAK.... I challenge him and stand uo for myself'... I get pretty upset and q up getting punched in the face, choked out or my head slammed into cement. Yesterday- a knife to the throught while being choked out. Its been 4 yrs. I used to think DM victims were weak and stupid and lame but now i see how it is an artful dance that is comd calcilated and concise. SO AFTER ACCEPTING MY DELIMMA- I have to be strong- ive begun to DETACH EMOTIONALLY! With my friends and with punk rock I know i can do this-----JUST SUX I FAILED AT GIVING MY GIRLA REAL NUCLEAR FAMILY ,@$_x$&$ c**kass! Cmon lets get me single!