I don't know really what to say & that's why I think I'm insane because I can't make a decision anymore, my mind is blank, erased by all the malice & paranoia, succumb to the doubt & loneliness, beaten by fear & hate. Well, what I'm trying to say is that I'm deeply disturbed. My hole life has been dramatic, I would of expected it to be alot worse. So what if I may be psychotic, at least it keeps me from giving up on life. But I have to find someone to talk to besides myself or I'm sure I'll get worse. I get mixed up with good & evil alot when I watch movies. I like all good movies though. I like a good story. both good & evil.