Goals: Stereotypical chick goals
Job: Middle School Social Studies Teacher (which keeps me from wandering around looking the way I feel on the inside. I have been told I'm not "goth enough" before, which I find extremely amusing)
Hobbies: Drawing, Horseback Riding, Getting Tattoos
Residence: around the Raleigh Area
Good things (depending on how you look at it): honest, loyal, sarcastic, educated, employed, capable of sewing, napping champion, predictable, has a savings account and doesn't need you to pay for anything
Vices (though I like most of my vices): pessimistic, judgmental, 50% lazy, low self esteem, likes caffeine, does not like the outdoors (i keep seeing how people like the outdoors... I'm like a vampire...), I overuse ellipses. I think that's a big enough list to petrify most... though again, I think some of my vices can go on the good things list. Changing me is just not going to happen.
Tattoos: Red panda right rib, My Little Pony with baby dragon on right side thigh, Shadowmere from Skyrim on left rib, Code Geass symbol on right inner ankle, Lion with horns on the lower fun times region... I'm pretty much scheduled for more in the next two years, lol.
Piercings: Ears and belly button. Had a s**tty experience with the belly button and pretty much refuse to get more. But I like them on others
Health Issues:
1. I have epilepsy. It's f**king scary. It f**ks with my memory, mood, and s*x drive. I play it off and try to pretend like I'm strong, but seriously in the end it sucks. I've had issues recently with my previous med making me dizzy. It messed me up for two years. Finally on a different med call Vimpat and it seems to be working. If you need to know anything about this... prepare a long story.
2. I have anxiety & panic attacks. I am not doing this to be emo. It started when I had a horse take off with me and I picked it up as a coping mechanism. Yeah there is all kinds of crap that goes along with it, but it is what it is and I'm not faking it. Sometimes I get depressed. Could be because of the meds or whatever. Seriously, this could probably be solved with a hug and positive words, but I think people get the impression I'm going to chew their head off. Until then, I take Xanax as need and no you cannot have any
. Music: this seriously varies from metal to country.
Politics: I'm a Libertarian and will talk about it. I'll probably also try and get you to talk about it, and you'll probably hate me for it
. But I'm cool with talking to Republicans, Democrats, Socialists, or even Communists. You do your thing, but be ready to justify you're beliefs.Religion: Atheist... though I could lean towards Buddhism. If you're a Christian and serious about it, or hell, probably even not serious about it... it's probably a bad idea because my judgmental side will come out hardcore. This is another thing I will debate, so if you like to be in a dream world and ignore it... I am not the person you want to converse with.
Money Situation: Seriously, you need to have a job... and not as a waiter or flipping Burgers at Burger King. I have played the sugar mamma and let's remember I'm on a school teacher's salary. However, I am not a gold digger and do not need you to pay for me. It would be great if you had a decent credit score and a savings account. I am ridiculously judgmental about money. If I can do it on my salary, you can to. I have saved up a huge chunk of money because I live at home. My mother is cool, so I can do this without hating life. I never want to pay rent because it's a waste of money. I want to go out and straight up buy a house with a low mortgage and all that jazz. So, you can pick on me about it if you have more money in savings than I do. Also, I have plenty of bills. We can argue all day that you have to pay rent, but I pay $300 for a horse, $80 for the farrier, $80 for my cell phone, who knows how much for gas because people always expect me to drive to Raleigh, and on and on. I know this sounds hostile and I'm sorry. But, I'm tired of people being depressed that they haven't been able to save and taking it out on me.
Cigarettes and Drugs: I HATE cigarettes. I'm sensitive to them and I think it's a massive waste of money. Vaping I'm cool with. I don't do it, but you go ahead. Hard drugs are deal breakers. Weed... I'll give you funny looks if you do stereotypical crap, but I'm not going to stop you unless it interferes with the relationship.
Alcohol: I drink on weekends. I normally drink wine. I can get pretty obnoxious like everybody else that drinks. If you're straight edge, you might want to rethink talking to me.
What I'm looking for: someone unique. The reformed bad boy that is now a nerd and decided to get his s**t together. An intellectual. I've been told I need someone who can challenge me... I'm iffy about that and think it better be someone who won't completely freak out. Someone who's going to be a romantic even though I pretend to hate the cliches (I loves them). Someone who can deal with my pessimism and negativity. I'm sure it gets old, but if you think I'm going to change because you're special then you're probably wrong. I love laughing, but my first response to a s**tty situation is anger. I think it blows over fast, but if you're a wimp then I'm not for you. I'm putting this out there because I don't want to waste you time, my time, and my heart just can't take it anymore. So, you can skip over me if you want someone passive, giggly, and always in a good mood.
