Mood: Apatheti, My life is spiraling downward .I couldn’t get enough money to go to the "Blood Red Romance & Suffocate Me Dry" concert. It sucks because they play some of my favorite songs like, 'Stab My Heart Because I Love You' and 'Rip Apart My Soul' and of course 'Stabby, Rip, Stab, Stab'. .
My life is just a black abyss, You know? It’s so dark. And it's suffocating me, Grabbing a hold of me and tightening it's grip. You met me at a very strange time in my life. whacked out bald freaks hit me with a f**king broom! They almost broke my arm! They were burning their fingertips with lye, the stink was unbelievable! I like to behave in an extremely normal, wholesome manner for the most part in my daily life. Even if mentally I'm consumed with sick visions of violence, terror, s*x and death.
I'm driven. I am. I'm driven for some reason. But I don't know where I'm going. I never expected I would be connected to the Alpha male as some kind of ancillary object, and to this day it mystifies me. I don’t do many scandalous things, I really don’t lead a debauched life. I left my family, and I left my brother and sister, and I went and lived my dream. God, I always just think of myself as a jeans and T-shirt kind of person.
24 hours ago i was sitting in the Pogo Lounge of the Beverly Heights Hotel, in the patio section of course, drinking Singapore Slings with mescal on the side, hiding from the brutish realities of this foul year. Cows are gonna kill me. I can remember when I saw him last We were running all around and having a blast, but thats done.
I f**king hate nirvana
