Life. Life, well life is life. There's not much we can do about it. In fact the only thing you can do is either live it or end it. So then, why do we make a big fuss about the unselect? Is it truly the meaning that were looking for. If every life is unique, then every meaning has to be unique, this than implies that there is no universal meaning of life, rather a universal meaning for one person’s life. In my opinion, the meaning of life is to discover your own personal meaning. Why you are put here on this planet is the ultimate goal for you figure out. Because your goal may be different than your neighbors, your best friend, your spouse. This is something that we all fail to recognize. All our goals and our aspirations are not the same as others. This is why the great philosopher of the ancients could not pinpoint the meaning of life because the meaning of life different for all people. The only thing you really do is stick it out till the end.
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A few words arnt going to let u get to know somebody. Really i could say anything i want and you can take that at face value. I could be lying to you the whole time. The only way to get to know somebody is trought time. You can't just read a profile, comment them a few time then say your best friends. Thats is the stupidest thing that i see on here and i see it all the time. So i hate these things but im left with now other optionI just kinda wright what im think down here..... and most of its just rambling haha.
disclamer: I think of myself as a philsopher. So what i write down here im usually feeling a certain mood. Therefore if im sad i sound like i hate the world and want to die. but i dont. Acutally most of the time i'm happy. If you dont like it dont read it.
My life Sucks. yea i've got a house with food and things to were. but what does all that matter if i dont have any friends or someone to love and hold when i'm down. Or some one to protect when there down. SO many people have told me that you have other things to worry about then a boyfriend, like why don't you concentrate on school. i have one things to say to them. NO people who spend all there time on school are forced into a life where all they care about is work. they are so absorbed in work they forget to settle down. i look around and see all my classmates going out on weekends night with the girl friends and i think to my self that could never be me.
GOD For the 30 time today i got asked the question "How did you know you were bi, or why do you like %*^#!@ guys up the ass, or my personal fav who are you bi for" I Am just sick and tired of thinking about this and I think Ive found the answer. The Answer is I don't like f**king guys in the ass no im not gay for anyone what ever the hell that means and how did you know you were into girls. I found this site supports my thoughts about being bi. It not about the s*x and if it is for you than you just as bad as the dumbass hetros and dive the normal sain GLBTs a bad name. It about having someone who is there who wants to care for you. Someone who likes you for you and the most important word in real love's dicitonary: Cuddling. Now if you have someone who loves you so much that they would get the same felling from cuddling as s*x then you have someone special. Its the closness that make people love each other not s*x GOD!!!!
THE GREATEST THING YOU'LL EVER LEARN IS JUST TO LOVE AND BE LOVED IN RETURN!!!!!!!!!!!!! "Nature Boy"
I relized that people and for certain teenagers have to classify themselves in a catagory. Some poeple dont notice it though, they think they get along with every body. i look at them and see the group of people that eat lunch togther every day and tend to gravitate to those people when they have free time. i can almost time it down to the second when some one in my class will get up and go sit next to that certian person who they feel to be most there friend. I have never had that person or people in fact i have never had a single friend at all. it must be nice to have the secure blanket to fall under when u go sit at lunch or when u have free time in class. u know ur not going to look like a tool just sitting in your desk all alone with no one around u or standing in the middle of the cafateria trying to find the least treating table to sit at. Then theres me who goes and sits at the table and everyone goes around making fun of me while i try to eat my meal eatting wile get berated and laught at for every little thing i do. . Thats all i have to say about that.
Adapting is a natural part of life for living things. But for humans its almost shamful. We have memories and adapting is like running away from those. Which is why when we are born we are the same people were going to be 50 years from the moment. It is through adaptation that we build up this fake shell. It is only through true love that we make it back to this prime state of who we really are. It is a horrible life that we all live trying to fight through this damn world. WE all have to eat sleep and breath but between those what do we have? Sometimes we think we know and that all in the world is good. Then there are times when we think the world is falling apart and dont have anything in the world but our selves. I stop and look around and see a world that is falling apart and people just go on there marry way. We all illusion are selves to the fact that our part in the world no matter how small our big, it will all just end well. Our abilty to just look around see whats going on and not do something, that is our adaptation.
Our lives are point less. AT least mine is. I guess thats what i get for living in a area that hates who i am really am.
I look at relationships like a book. There outer beauty is the cover, it must look appiling to the person or they would never pick it up in the first place. Then the first few pages are of the person's bacround, family, and how well u get a long the first few time u meet. But here is were people go wrong. They jump right to s*x aka the climax (not the end) of the book. If people do that they ruin the hole book aka person. how are u going to be supprised in the middle if you have already read the end. You will most likely get board and go find someother book to read. Stop runing book for yourself people wait to have s*x to you have read the middle. The end of the book is marriage. Then u beging to write a new book the book of you as one unite insted of two people. But if u havent read your partners book how would you expect to write one with them. Then if you have children well you are laying the outline for them to write there book. But again if you and your partner havent mastered write with each other how could you ever write an outline for your children.
Why do people need to hurt others. We all try to find that one person who is so special to us that we not only want to spend our entire lives with them, but give up our lives in the event they need us to. You would think that we all have the same wants in happyness, but something goes wrong and i cant figure out what it is.
Then people end up getting hert.Good fights a hopeless fight aginst evil.
I have relized something. That in this world there are two kindsof people. The ones who live there lives day today trying to get by, and then there are poeple like me who have some special perpous in the world. Mine in light of recent events i have come to know as something i hate and depise and can't understand why im this way but i am forced to be a boy who has all the answer to every one else's problems, but his own he is helplessly lost. I must walk this troubled world forever helping every one else, but to myself i have no hope of being happy.
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had."Mad World"
Taking the first step. No matter where it is, wether its in a relationship or an endever that you are willing to start up. For me this first step is always equated with relationships, or in my case lack there of. Im not a shy person, but my constent failure in taking that first step had made me wery in ever taking a first step. i dont know why but every time i look at my past my first steps always leads me off a cliff instead of walking off into the sun. So i dont take that first step with anyone or anything.
My favorit example of love. It is something i see alot and then again not that often. It those teenage couples. You know the ones that always follow each other. There always holding hands and kissing. They act a one instead of two people. I love to see that.
Hope. Fear can imprison a man, but hope can set him free.
"I Hope" Morgan Freeman in Shawshank Redemption.
Those two simple words can instill so much in a person. I know those are the words I say everyday. Im hopefull that my life will get better. Im hopefully for that speical person to come alonge one day and just totally knock me off my feet. Then I'd know that all that hopinig was for something. Each day it gets stronger. Say that to your self. "I Hope"
Death is a finale for only the living. The spirit it never lets go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
